The First Decision
This was a weekend on the road.
The first decision was that I would not abandon my diet this weekend, BUT, would relax a bit some of the restrictions.
If I had never done this before I might have some kind of excuse. But this is a lifelong pattern.
That first decision predictably led to total health disaster weekend. And with no regrets … until tonight. I decided I need to be real and accountable to myself and whoever reads this. It’s a lot easier when you don’t think about it.
And so tomorrow I begin again. Again. Again. Again.
The first decision wasn’t really as I described it. My first decision was to get my health back in order. I second-guessed that decision and made a mess of things.
The first decision is the one I need to stick with. I know how to do it … I just … blew it.
If you read this, thanks.
HS
At least you now know that when you’re on the road you’re going to struggle. What are you going to do next time to make things easier? For me a big part of the last 6 months has been identifying my weak spots and finding ways to fix them.
Harry
February 15, 2010 at 4:52 pm
Thank you Harry. You’re so right … I do need to make a plan, instead of just falling into old rhythms that have led me to failure upon failure.
hungerstruggle
February 17, 2010 at 12:24 am